Currently inspired… I have a new room to paint/decorate and absolutely fall in love with… I cannot wait :)
Love, Rochelle
22. Recent college grad. Currently living in Del Mar. Loves: writing, art, love, health, fitness, a little bit of fashion, & all things pretty. This blog is a random collection of the little things that inspire my daily life. Enjoy.
Following
I don’t think one is ever technically “grown up”. I think that the process of growing up is continual throughout a person’s lifetime and the possibilities are infinite. Sometimes they come from nowhere, sometimes from each other, and sometimes from the possibilities of others. But whatever way you have it, it’s truly exciting and always inspirational.
Here is my list. When I grow up….
I want to be healthy
I want to be a positive role model
I want to marry the man of my dreams
I want to have a full time job that I love
I want to dance in some way for the rest of my life
I want to write a novel and have it published
I want to work at a magazine
I want to be able to travel the world
I want to be in great shape, both physically and emotionally
I want to make art and sell it
I want to make other people happy
I want to volunteer
I want to be the best daughter, granddaughter, sister and friend (and mother) that I can be
I want to live with no regrets
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken - and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
I am an excitable person who only understands life lyrically, musically, in whom feelings are much stronger than reason. I am so thirsty for the marvelous that only the marvelous has power over me. Anything I can not transform into something marvelous, I let go. Reality doesn’t impress me. I only believe in intoxication, in ecstasy, and when ordinary life shackles me, I escape, one way or another. No more walls.
It is no way to live, to wait to love.
Right now I’m single because I know what I want and I refuse to settle. Finally. And proudly. I’ve always been (and stayed) in my relationships (both serious and casual) because I really didn’t have anything else better to do or anyone else more worthy of dating. I settled. I compromised because I honestly used to think that settling was the best option—that you most likely had to end up settling somehow in some way to have a lasting relationship. But once I freed myself of my last relationship, I also freed myself of this terrible and claustrophobic way of thinking about my future.
I now feel that no one should ever settle for someone that they are not head-over-heals for. Chemistry is everything when finding—and keeping—a companion.
But it’s so hard, and that’s what makes it difficult to really analyze the inclination to settle for a man and a specific kind of relationship, even when that relationship may not be ideal, perfection for the remainder of one’s lifetime… Meeting eligible people gets ever harder once you are older, and I’m not even that “old” yet! In high school it was like hormones on a sugar high. Going into college, I remember being so overwhelmed with the idea of an unlimited dating potential. Now, since graduating, things are starting to change, and I feel almost in an in-between phase of dating, age-wise. I’ve started to set my standards a little higher (seriously factoring in the possibility of marriage and whatnot), and just as I do that, the eligible men (numbers) start to plummet. And all things relationship get more confusing. What I DO know, is the longer you wait around for Mr. Right, the longer your chances of being (and, oh no! staying) single…which could also be the best thing ever—or the worst.
So, when do you know that you are just not settling (waiting around for the perfect guy that probably will never come, anyway) or just being unrealistic and picky? It’s a very fine line that many women I know have been trying to balance on. Some fall off and settle but some wait around for the absolute real thing, “true love”. And to me, that possibility of being completely content with a relationship and having it happily last for a lifetime is worth being just a little big pickier.
“hi how are u tonight? I would like to tell u, nobody is perfect but maybe we will be :)”
Another Adventures in Online Dating
ummm… Maybe not.
Anything that feels that good couldn’t possibly be bad. There’s something about death that is comforting, the thought that you could die tomorrow frees you to appreciate your life now.
You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. You know, school, then college, then work, fuck that. And fuck the air force academy. If I wanna fly, I’ll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest.
I am DYING with laughter right now!!
“I admit it! I don’t want my clients, business associates, or friends to know that I am on this website. Email pics on request.
You will be Queen. I am looking for a woman to complement me, my soul mate. She should be generous where I am sometimes lacking. I am very picky & you should be too:) I never have any doubt in what I believe or feel.
My life story in short form: Cowboy grows up in small town. Cowboy studies and overcomes obstacles to earn scholarship to prestigious university in Los Angeles. Cowboy embraces a new world and lifestyle. Cowboy begins the metaphoric process into becoming a knight. Knight graduates from prestigious university. Knight succeeds in business and becomes a King.”
Adventures in Online Dating
btw this man is 40 years old. You are old enough to be my DAD, noooo thank you!
